So besides getting raped to pieces by physics and econ so far and most likely mse tomorrow…I’m feeling pretty depressed about the school year ending and I feel like some people feel the way I feel, but it just doesn’t seem like it is to the same magnitude. My hall was a pretty small one, but I think that just let me become tighter with pretty much everyone in it. I’m not best of friends with every person, but the group we made just is going to be sorely missed this Summer and unfortunately will be missing one of its members for the next 2 years. Cory, one of my hall mates is Mormon and is going to be on his mission starting in mid June or July. I’m really going to miss staying up late with all of the engineers doing homework or playing video games. I’m really going to miss coming home to people being in my room despite the fact that neither my room mate or I were there because we have a futon (epitome of class) and a TV. I’m going to miss being able to just go out into the hall and know there was going to be some one else doing something or looking for something to do. I’m going to miss being to get a group together to go eat in just a couple minutes. I’m going to miss coming back from class and bitching about the exam we just took or the homework that we have. I mean I guess this is how it is for everyone, but either way it sucks. Sure they’ll be here next year…once again minus cory which really really sucks, but everyone else will be here. It won’t be in the hall though. No H1R. No sarcastic comments from the RA Jack anymore. No Woo yelling at everyone to get out of his room because he wants to sleep and no one listening. Just a whole lot less oddities and shenanigans to come home to see. It is tearing me up inside and on top of it I have two fucking exams tomorrow. I feel like I’m losing a part of myself because this hall has become part of me over the last several months. I really appreciate everything this hall has given me and I don’t want to lose it, but the only way I can find out how to deal with it is to just wait and see what happens. I think I’ve made some friends for life here and there is nothing more I can ask out of the past year than that. Well…actually I could as for a higher GPA, but that can be accomplished in due time (actually the next 3 years). Glad I wrote this down. Feel a lot better now that I kind of realized what I just realized. I guess to sum up the year would be appropriate for this post considering the well the title. So let’s see…first semester was definitely a um getting used to this kind of time…had a girl friend and found out that having a long distance relationship sucks and definitely complicates things. Also found out that taking notes in calculus despite having already learned everything is crucial. First semester I had a lot of fun, met a lot of new people and bonded with the hall a lot. Looking back I kind of wish I had not come to college with a girlfriend because I feel like I didn’t want to make girl…friends because it would make things harder (fuck me for being a good guy right? or call me a bitch…whatevs). Anyways I didn’t make that many girl…friends, but made a lot of guy friends and got really close with the room mate Owais..still one of the best decisions I have ever made to room with him. Enough about first semester though, read past posts to find out more. Second semester was a lot more…eventful. I had broken it off with said girlfriend and then started having a thing with another girl here. Also started rushing fraternities almost immediately after the semester started. I started out the semester taking 18 credits and thinking I was going to be a Chemical Engineering major…that changed very quickly and I dropped chemistry and picked up MSE, which looking back on it was um well I just wish I would have stayed in chemistry because I hate MSE. Anyways I did what I did, but I also decided to not declare Chemical Engineering, but instead Computer Engineering due to my new found love for Computer Science and some urging from a the wild esposito in the hall to join him in majoring in Computer Engineering. Back to the fraternity thing though. Got invites back from a few frats and didn’t really have the intention of joining any of them. However, I did continue to go to the rush events to get the most out of my $25 spent on rushing and had a really good time with two fraternities in particular…Theta Chi and Phi Sig. In the end I kind of just stopped going to invites from Theta Chi and stuck with Phi Sig and eventually decided to pledge there when I received a bid. It was really nice to have Owais there with me during rush and I was really happy when both him and Brett decided to pledge as well (both phi sig). Pretty much from the time pledging started until it ended a week before finals started that was all I did. Owais and I did make it down to William and Mary and to Longwood (a visit that was way past due) to see my best friend Kyle and had a great time at both places. Like I said…pledging took up a lot of our time especially the weekends. It was a lot of fun pledging, but the time it took up did show in my grades I think. It wasn’t that I wasn’t going to class it was I think I just had less energy to care because of it. It’s really no excuse, but it is what it is now and my grades are what they are and I can only look at them and want to do better because of it. I’m really glad I pledged over all though. I am certain that I am going to be great friends with most of my pledge class and I am living with one of them next year. I’ve pretty much rambled on in this post and I’m still kind of depressed about everyone leaving and me leaving so I guess I’ll just cut off this post with some shakespeare that kind of explains how I feel about everyone leaving, but starting the Summer and a new page in the college life.

Yet I should kill thee with much cherishing.
Good night, good night! Parting is such sweet sorrow,
That I shall say good night till it be morrow.

For every group of people that celebrate something there is always a cynic saying there is something wrong with what they are celebrating…that is bringing down the mood. This is still the case with such a great moment for the United States of America today. This pisses me off to no end. I understand that not all of the problems in the world have been fixed today and I understand that terrorism as a whole is not gone and that Osama Bin Laden has already been replaced, but have some pride for your country damnit. Be proud for all of those people that put their time, effort, and unfortunately their lives into protecting this amazing country from terrorists like Osama Bin Laden. Be proud that even after 10 years of looking our military and government never gave up and did succeed in their mission to free the world of an awful mad man. I know I’m proud. I know that every time someone yells by my window yelling or singing or blasting patriotic music that my heart is lifted a little more. To belittle what happened today/yesterday is wrong. So don’t be a fucking douche bag that posts a facebook status saying that this isn’t anything because there are still people starving. Be happy, be proud, support your country and all the men and women that gave their lives to at the very least live in a country where you aren’t the one starving.

I’m exhausted and I have homework that will be due soon that I’m not sure I will actually be able to complete. This is unfortunate.

So just a quick post here. Things are only a big deal when people make them a big deal. If you don’t make something a big deal and no on else makes it a big deal chances are…it won’t be a  big deal. So just a little note for all of that drama out in the world that turn everything into a high school break up type drama….if you don’t make it a big deal that makes it much more likely that no one else will either. On the other hand if you want to make something a big deal it’s pretty damn easy. So do what you want…just don’t bitch about it :) Also this really has nothing to do with anything I was just thinking about it earlier and wanted to say how I saw what I see. Ya see? I don’t. peace.

Ok so maybe this post is ill titled because by “This WEEKEND” I really mean the period of time that occurred between Wednesday around 10pm and well really until I go to sleep. Now to explain this set period of ridiculously awesome time. Wednesday night I just went to the house and played BP with some brothers and had a good chill time with them and the drunk called some people when I got home. Thursday I had a prospective student come and The Masters of the House BP tournament happened, I didn’t do all that well, but the black light painting of the basement at the house had begun and it was really cool to see that progress so I guess losing didn’t bother me too much. Then after getting about the perfect about of wastedness two fellow pledges and my prospective and I went to eat at Q’Doba and I had hands down the best Q’Doba burrito I’ve ever had. No comparison. Friday was a cool day in many ways. First the Inauguration of President Teresa Sullivan (to be referred to as TSull from now on) was happening and Owais signed me up to volunteer with him to help the President’s from other universities put on their regalia. Now it was boring as hell no doubt, but I did meet the president of the U.Cal. university system which I thought was pretty cool. In retrospect I would have liked to have gotten a picture with him, but whatever no big deal. After we were done volunteering we threw some stuff in our bags for the camping trip that was supposed to happen that night. It ended up not being quite a camping trip in the sense most people would think of it as in we did not end up spending the night. Instead we stayed until it got pretty late and then drove home because it was supposed to thunderstorm and just downpour around 4am that night/morning, which would have sucked. We were supposed to have to coach a soccer game the next morning pretty early anyways so I was totally cool with that decision being made. The soccer game ended up not happening because of the weather anyways, which I was even more alright with because well it was early and I wanted to have a lot of energy for the PAINT RAVE that night. The pledges spent most of the day getting all of the stuff set up for the party and a whole bunch of my friends came in from out of town for it. The party was sooooo fun and totally worth all of the effort that went into it in my opinion. It was definitely the best party of the semester, there were tons of good looking girls there and it was a freakin’ paint party. I was covered in that stuff and there were black lights every where. It was in one word legit. To top off the paint party being awesome I didn’t even have to clean it up because I volunteered to help out our graduate advisor DD for some friends at a vineyard about an hour away. It was a beautiful day and since they didn’t need to go anywhere before going home I pretty much laid out in the sun with a pledge brother that had also volunteered. To top that off we are both getting a fifth of something (to be decided in the near future). The rest of the today (Sunday) has been spent chilling and thanks to facebook I found out that there is a livestream of KANYE WEST performing at the Coachella music festival and it is blowing my MIND. I really kind of want to go to sleep because I’m exhausted from all of the fun, but seriously it is so good. Kanye West if he ever lost my favorite artist spot (I guess I really mean favorite hip hop artist to be more specific) well he certainly has reclaimed it in the best fashion possible. I wish I was there. He just started Hey Mama, which according to him is the last song of the night. It is definitely one of my favorite songs of all time and it really is ending my weekend in a good way. Life is good and everyday I’m happy to just experience it and I thank God that I have such a good one. I was walking home with Owais and Brett today and we were talking about how Owais is Muslim, Brett is a Jew, and I’m Christian/Catholic and Brett asked if (yeezy just dedicated the show to his mom gosh such a good song) I had any atheist friends, which I do. I told them that I do and Owais obviously knew that I did anyways, but (the dude is crying there is no way I can dislike a man that cries about the song he wrote about his mom in front of a crowd of thousands and thousands of people. Ain’t nothin wrong with that and Kanye’s dancers are hott as well)  I said it kind of scares me that people don’t believe in some sort of a God and before I could really voice my thoughts into understandable sentences Owais just stops me and says something like look around…how can anyone think that something else didn’t have a hand in making this. Deep shit man. Enough about that though. The Kanye performance just ended, which is perfect because I’m going to sleep now. Life is good life is good life is good. Also that was the best live performance I can remember seeing. It just blew my mind. Life is good. Good night!